Thoughts on Love and my 18 list.

Honestly... I'm terrified of falling in love. I keep telling myself that I don't believe in it, but I really know that it's because I don't understand and haven't experienced love before. Yes, I've basically had an obsession (NEVER again!!!) with one boy and many crushes on others, but not love... not yet. I don't know. Is it something that I have control over? Yeah? I might give it a chance when I'm 18, I don't know. I've just been thinking about heartbreak lately and it seems so painful. All of these couples are breaking up and I slightly feel guilty and lost for not being able to empathize. Rawr. I don't know. Never mind. Whatever happens happens. I just really never want to be that sad over someone. It's so terrifying. :(

Plus, here's a list of things I'd like to do for the first time when I turn 18 in two months (not in order):

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-camp out at the beach with someone

-take a bubble bath

-go on a trampoline

-skydive

-actually hike in the woods

-go to a sleepover

-Slide Rock

-scuba dive

-build a raft

-travel in Europe

-ski

-horseback riding

-watch a musical

-attend an opera

-go to a band concert

-throw someone a surprise party

-hot air balloon

-finish and record a song

-fly a kite

-(not a first) go on a seesaw and merry-go-round

-have an actual picnic with a blanket and basket

-sleep under the stars with a constellation book

-learn how to do a handstand

-jump into the water after swinging on a rope

-tire swing

-sleep over in an awesome tree house

Do you have any suggestions?