I'm afraid

I'm really scared.

I don't understand.

I'm losing hope.

I'm getting sad.

I feel confused.

I'm stuck in the past.

Only because of emotions. These are all emotions.

I know that this part only affects about 10% of me.

I'm alright with that.

The other 90% of me is focused on the happy things

So I'm 90% happy with my life.

That's an A in my book

but

I still want it perfect

I don't understand why

Is it because I know I deserve it?

Have I not learned my lesson before???

85 should have kept me happy

I should have just held onto that 85...

I mean in the 10% part I'm feeling now

so that my overall average would be 98.5% happy

not just 90...

you know?

I don't know.

I'm going.