I win drafts so often. Infinite packs feel good, man. The $10 are for the promos every week really.
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
"I dreamt that we were at the beach and I was running my fingers through your hair umtil you fell asleep on me. I always dream about what im thinking about and for the past few weeks I've only thought about you..."
Guys are stupid
What a nice dream
I hate my memories
Sometimes I actually miss the past and reliving certain moments actually hurt more than how good it felt at the time.... :(
I wanna hug from Andrew.
I don't ever wanna let him go.
The beginning of a relationship is always my favorite.
I have a lot of guys who just treat me like they're kind of dating me. They're sweet and say stupid things and do really nice things for me
which makes me miss feeling what it's like to receive all of that kind of attention from someone I like.
Let's erase everything
muttering to herself "I'm not ready for death"
she looked up in the sky and thought of a boy
whose heart she had longed to quickly destroy
up mountains through forests to meet hazel eyes
to see the man who'll reach his demise
"Hack me" she said in a weak stance
"010110010110010101110011001011000010000001101101001001110110000101101101" he thought under her trance
Together they stared not knowing what to say
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I wish I could travel with him and experience so many new things
I just want him to teach me so much
Out of all the people I know, I FEEL like he has impacted me the most
Maybe I should go to China and see him
learn some Chinese on the way
play some card games
help him develop his apps
..
I always fall in love with my teachers. ha
like my ex
and then Kyle
but now we're friends, thank goodness
all the Asian girls love him
I've already had my fair share so I don't care anymore
and then I met Andrew
and then my life became perfect.
It's like...
I met the perfect first love
then the perfect "bad guy"
and then the perfect sweet boy I think I should end up with.
I love him a lot you know.
I think he treats me right
even if I get annoyed at little things like misunderstandings, being late, cats and having to be specific
Monday, August 27, 2012
How can someone be so beautiful? I'm using the Google text to speech app on my phone and I'm too lazy to type... but anyways I sell my TA in here. I meant to say that I saw my t a and he was beautiful.
He had the perfect style like he was from the 60's
I'm not sure exactly what it is about him, I love the way his hair was closer so stylish
Kind of like to is so I'm not so sure so I don't like that so much
Anyway, beautiful people seem to make things in life easier
I want to be beautiful. My boyfriends gonna be beautiful.
Everyone is beautiful.
I am so sleepy
Sunday, August 26, 2012
The worst thing about Andrew is that he has five cats, which is good and bad.
It's good because there are a lot of things that could have been bad about him personally, but the worst is just cats.
It's bad because I want to live with him and don't know how I'd handle five cats yet.
Five is a lot!
Home is where I'd like to be comfortable at. I wanna be able to jump on the couch and relax as I watch TV after school.
I'm afraid of having red eyes and itchy skin constantly.
Yeah.... poop
Friday, August 24, 2012
Thursday, August 23, 2012
my birthday wasn't that great
...
i just want to gets things I like unexpectedly
i have such high hopes for presents
but that's probably because i give other people such great presents...
I still haven't gotten my presents from Nick and Ben or my aunt
I just want a surprise birthday party........
with people i know.....
I just see people
oh never mind.
Anywayyyyyyy
*sigh*
I'm such a whiner.
everyone at the game academy seems to think that guys swarm around me
apparently i have a fan club called the knights who say nhi
i've heard that 10 million times
Saturday, August 18, 2012
:)
It's like....
I'm stuck at 17 again.
And instead of two or four packs of cigarettes once in a while
It's two boxes of random dot hack cards.
Whatever.
Life is good
and I miss being Nhi.
:)
Friday, August 17, 2012
I love tall people.
I love sweet people who are kind.
The grass was so nice
The sun was so warm
and I waited
All I did was wait
To feel happy
To smile
To kiss you.
"If I lay in the grass now and sing a song, he'll be awake when I get back."
I take a deep breath, finish
and...
nope.
Nope.
nope
nope
Nope.
NOPE.
no.
I always wait.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Actually... I'll think of it in my mind instead, nice and slow
Remember warm peanut brittle?
I purposely left it in the car for you
It was for me, but I knew you liked it too
And George Harrison music
You know how I play FNM and draft every week now
I used to buy CDs.
"What should I listen to?"
becomes
"Who should I be?"
At least it did for me.
I like almost all music.
I can't really get into metal, screamo, dubstep and bad country music though.
I love those songs with the perfect tones and harmony.
Remember when I got to choose a title?
Hm...
I'm so old now, yet so young.
You're old.
So... old.
I've had a diary forever.
Those are the best kind of men
the ones who'll care for and love another man's child like his own.
I don't know, but something about that is amazing.
Today I saw a man like that and I couldn't stop smiling
I was so happy for him and his family
His kid probably deserves such a nice guy to be his father
buying him a talrand deck and all.
It was awesome.
"You're dating Andrew? How did he manage to get you?? He's such a lucky guy."
Well, he was interesting kind of when he asked me out on OKC so I didn't ignore him. He didn't seem very attentive towards me and I like A LOT of distance in the beginning of a relationship, you know? I like my room. Other guys just seemed to give me everything too fast: love, money and attention. Also as I kept dating Andrew I found out how wonderful he is, so I love him.
Some guys have said that he's not much competition. Some guys just ignore the fact that I'm taken and keep flirting with me so I wonder what goes on in their mind.
I wonder if the girls from CoolStuff deal with this.
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
I can introduce you to a girl like me!
She plays yu gi oh instead of magic though
And plays videos games!
Except only fpss
And uh
She isn't as pretty but she's Asian and cute
.-----.
"She already sounds a lot worse than you"
-.......-
She was the best example I could think of for another girl like me
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Monday, August 13, 2012
I thought that people crushing on their friends for a long time was just something that happened on TV.
When I was in high school and middle school I didn't have crushes for too long.
I was always very blunt about it and wanted to get it over quickly.
I would ask boys to dances or out and stuff.
I remember being rejected twice. Once by Josh when I asked about prom and then by Scott later when I asked him to homecoming.
I used you be friends with Tommy but after two weeks I made my intentions clear. I told him that I liked him and then wrote him a poem.
Things just started becoming weird when I liked Kyle though.
We both liked each other but weren't in a relationship and I was fine with that
When he left that's when I liked him for a long time without seeing him.
I guess I was like the sucker in those movies.
The only thing though was I had several chances to be with him again, I was just too lazy to.
I just really liked the romantic idea.behind it all
When he came back to Orlando for me I didn't even see him.
The first time was because I was in a car accident
And recently it was because I didn't think Andrew would like it.
Yeap.
I have a boyfriend now and don't really want to ruin it all by taking chances.
I know I'm not going to cheat or anything but for some reason I can't predict how Andrew will feel.
Sometimes I just decide to do things on the spot or get swept up by the excitement around me.
Life is good. :)
I've been through a lot of shitty things in my life
but I get over things so easily
It's like a magical power or something
and I try to teach people how to all the time by saying "Just forget about it."
or "This can be fixed."
Let me tell you my secret steps.
...
Promise not to tell anyone else
If they don't know you and they don't know me, I don't think they'll understand
Also, I want to be the one who tells them.
Anyway, as soon as something goes wrong I will go "Okie, whatever"
or "It's fine, don't worry about it."
Something like that where I don't care too much about the situation immediately
So now I'm not depressed, angry or upset
because it's whatever, you know?
Afterwards I logically think if there's a way to fix it
Is the solution simple?
*IMPORTANT!!!*
If you want to be happy, don't be lazy.
Sometimes when people hear about something wrong they just act upset
They don't do anything about it either
They pretend to, they look busy and the whole time they're pretending to be busy looking for a "nonexistent solution" they obviously display their emotions of being upset
And I hate that.
1. There is almost always a solution. Don't be lazy. Do it. Things aren't that hard to do in the US and the internet.
2. If there is no solution, don't worry. Just move on.
People keep telling me that you can control your emotions
I've listened to them and now I can.
I live my life logically and through evidence of my life, not assumptions from yours.
My life is different and I want to succeed, which I am doing quite famously if I may say so myself.
:)
I want to brag so much today!
Now I'm thinking about the musical and plays I was in during high school, middle school and elementary.
I'm thinking about all the recitals I've had for playing piano, guitar, zither, oboe and flute.
I'm thinking about the time I have modded my own Corvette and won races.
I'm thinking about the winning goals I've made for soccer and the volleyball hit I did.
I'm thinking about my previous tennis matches.
I'm thinking about how hard I've worked for three and a half years to earn money and buy a house
Remember when I started the Asian Student Association and became president raising over $7,000
as well as president of Key Club and volunteering for several hundred hours.
All that time school, work, volunteer, hone skills
I learned C and Java enough to write little games. Ha.
I made friends and spoke Spanish with them in Barcelona.
I've written two books that I really should reread and edit, but still that's a lot of fucking writing.
I've just done so much.
Since I turned 18 I've taken a break though.
I'm having a lot of fun, but not accomplishing that much.
No wonder so many people love me.
Sunday, August 12, 2012
Maybe I just want to save the world too much, but is there really such a thing?
I just hate those people who make themselves sad for no good reason
No type of sadness feels good, no matter the excuses
I understand postponing euphoria for a certain amount of time.
I don't understand finding something wrong in a perfectly fine situation.
I've heard a lot of excuses in my life
and I've learned a lot from you
so just be happy.
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.
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Be happy!
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Maybe I'm the only person who takes advice from other people.
Only the advice learned through experience though.
My life is so easy.
Not just because I'm lucky,
but because I listened.
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I've been quiet for long time
but when I start talking maybe you should listen.
***********
One time I was walking through a park with a friend around a lake when we passed a bridge
in the concrete were prints of leaves so I said these words without thinking and broke the silence
"No matter how many times people attempt synthetic perfection nature will ruin it all and leave its mark."
so then my friend turned to me, laughed, and said "That's beautiful and awful and true. I like it! I wish I could write the things you say sometimes. They're beautiful and random."
Of course I felt flattered and I want to say that both you and I know that what I said isn't anything remarkable
But both you and I know how amazing I can be, even if I just say something average and smile.
Have you ever felt sad?
Have you ever told the tragic story of your life to someone who cares about you?
It feels good, man
And it feels better each time you tell it.
Then you start getting good at telling this story
And then when you're done telling it to everyone your story ends up telling you that you have a good life
That's what friends do
They help you tell your story correctly
I love not being lonely <3
I know some creepy boys and my friends are not creepy
Sometimes you become friends with people like Brett, Austyn, Ben, Kyle, Will, Bruce and Nick.
There are a lot of kids out there people think are weird
Socially awkward
Creepy...
Sometimes you just have to talk to them
Some people just want friends
I know I used to be the weird girl...
After giving someone your time they can tell you things no one else knows that explains their behavior
I know a few people who'd realize what douchebags they are if they're enlightened about some things
I really like being friends with people
For me, even if I haven't talked to you in years I can feel comfortable around you again if we've shared anything together.
Sometimes you just need someone to hang out with to feel normal again
I know I hate the feeling of being home every night alone
On the computer
Not talking to friends.
I would hate to be proposed with a Magic card, I think
I might consider a grade 10 Black Lotus though.
But this girl had a Rings of Brighthearth
How awful is that?
Also... what's even worse is that it was altered and the text didn't even say what the card does
Instead, they had the same Magic card name but the text was about marriage
like no more loneliness and protection from something, I can't remember.
Also, my friend Brandon, who's 18, just got married.
Isn't that too young?
I don't know.
I really don't want a wedding where it looks like I'm wearing a high school homecoming dress in my backyard though.
I'm a mean person.
Friday, August 10, 2012
As soon as a guy gives me too much attention I'm really turned off
Only when I first get to know them
<3
One reason I liked Andrew is because he paid the least amount of attention to me when we first started dating, except when on dates
The other guys I dated just kept IMing me and texting me and wanted to see me every day and kept saying they miss me already or were thinking of me but that stuff scared me off.
I used to like challenges
I feel like I've already conquered the most difficult person
And it only took me about eight months
I didn't even cry or anything!
Anyway, it's wonderful to relax with a sweet boy
I don't really want anyone else's attention
I just want Andrew to keep loving me
Thursday, August 9, 2012
I remember how jealous girls would try to set me up with othey guys so I wouldn't consider dating Tommy
And I remember the mean messages sent to me saying that guys have been sent pit to rape me and ruin my reputation
But my point is that I almost dated a bad guy
Thank goodness I didn't
The three guys I've liked are so kind and sweet
I'm just so lucky to have chosen the right ones for me each time
I think it's because I'm so wary of bad boys
I would hate to be thrown away and not appreciated
For instance, I learned from seeing several of my friends on Facebook and MySpace
They learn from the jerks they've dated and then date guys who they seem too good for at first (it's because the girls are really pretty) buy then I realized that those couples deserve each other.
I just went straight to the sweet guy.
Clever me. Ahahhaha.
Just kidding, lucky Nhi is more correct.
<3
I hope Andrew's interview goes by fantastic
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
I like it when guys text me sweet messages that I can wake up to
And when they call me "beautiful" (not so much "gorgeous", bad memories)
I also like pet names
And I like it when they just look at me and smile because they don't want to say anything, just enjoy the moment
When my time and presence are appreciated
When butterflies are felt
When it hurts when I'm gone, but not too much
I love you.
I don't like people who ignore easy solutions.
It's right there, do it yourself! Nothing is wrong... your life is good and there aren't any problems.
I also like guys who really appreciate simple things
And don't turn awesome things into insignificant explanations
*sigh*
Do you appreciate this art of all the blood and gore?
What he tries to represent in fantasy so inaccurate that it just becomes real and beautiful...
I appreciate those who try to make me smile
and those who smile when they see me.
It just makes me feel so happy.
I'm allowed to get upset once in a while
When things go wrong just fix it and move on
Be fake and happy once you find an answer, no matter how obvious because you'll forget it eventually... for a while anyway
Monday, August 6, 2012
Why is my brain so sad all the time?
I'm dreaming of kisses from those I love
And of myself giving in to push and shove
I see my life easily be torn to pieces
Never the right thing or one my mind seizes
Tasty smoke, now and then bitter
I was once a successful quitter
Hugs and kisses were once so exciting
Hugs and kisses are so damn inviting
I can't do anything right when I say goodbye
Old me is scary, indecisive and lies.
Okay
That's enough of bad rhymes
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Friday, August 3, 2012
Sometimes I find ugly boys attractive.
I never find ugly men attractive
But when they're young they can develop this charm
That only weird girls like me will notice...
I hope that they all can find a girlfriend
And that I'll stop feeling guilty when I remind them about Andrew.