I hate talking to you

but I feel like I have to

and it's usually alright

in the end

Well, let's just see what happens

The past is gone and over

And I'm moving on

................

:(

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On another note

I made an OkCupid account two days ago because I read the blog about Jon Finkel being a nerd.

And I wanted to find a guy like him...

And BAM!!!!! Jump to a few hours ago and I've got a former world champion of Yu-Gi-Oh messaging me. Yeah, that's right. ME!!!!

Haha, I love Yu-Gi-Oh!!!!

But I guess I'm going to be shallow and split.

Since this was an experiment anyway. Ha.

I suck.

(But I really am awesome. =p)

Grawr

I still act like a kid.

I still think like a kid.

I'm just a kid.

Growing up kinda sucks.

Also, it feels more difficult becoming an adult

especially when my name (Nhi) literally means kid

or child in Vietnamese

Why????????????

Oh well, whatever.

I will embrace my youth now

and love whatever comes my way

=]

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Hey guys!!!

I kinda have a crush on this guy. Wish me luck!

I feel better now

So please disregard my last entry. Especially if you're a boy. Ha.

I think I'm repulsed by any physically interaction with a boy 99% of the time now.

It used to be 90.

It used to be not at all.

It used be 20.

How sad that is for me

I'm not sure if you noticed

that a lot of guys want to touch me

whether it's holding hands

a hug

a kiss

or more

but lately I've developed a bad habit of just freezing up

and getting scared

but I guess it's just because out of the four boys who I let like me this year

three were creeps

and I keep telling myself never again

ha.

I've never been raped.

I'm just scared

maybe I just don't know...

I don't know, I just don't like being touched by boys anymore

and it's sad because I want to be

maybe one day again, by the right guy

I won't flinch when he grabs my hand to turn me around

as I walk away from him

...

I wish I was able to stay home and play music all day

I would like that

Instead I'm busy :(

Monday-Fri I'm at school and busy from maybe 8AM-8PM, then I'm so tired!!!

Saturday I have church stuff

Sunday I have church stuff

I wish to sleep!

and play music...

all day

every day

It feels like every boy likes me except for the one I like...