Maybe you could have handled whatever

but I couldn't

I get it. No one wants me to die.

now leave me the fuck alone to myself

you just ruined something I hoped would change my life for the better.

You've left me alone

with everything bad on my mind surrounding me

It hurts

I'm complaining

I know I'm a teenage girl

but I wanted to run away and start over

if only for a little bit...

that's all.

I promised to return

but now I'm burnt out

What the hell else do you want me to do??

What can I do??

I might as well use all of this fucking money to pay off my debts

This is not going to make me happy

stop buying my love

stop it...

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What the fuck, Nhi?

Are you really just going to get a job now

after telling people to stop throwing money at you?

I don't understand

So yeah, you're not going to Spain

But you are 18.

Not 19

20

21

22

23

.... 40

Whatever.

You're so young with so much time

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My entire family keeps asking who I'm going to Spain with

...

They think I'm meeting up with you-know-who

Ha

After all of this time they STILLLLLL

ugh

never mind.

T_T

I really am going alone though

just to escape

if only for a little bit

I keep realizing things that are typical characteristics of a geek

:/

Why am I so geeky?!

T_T

I love it when people stalk me

or think about me all day

or

"nwoll27: i was actually thinking about your voice earlier today

  specifically your voice

10:17 PM is that weird?

 me: Nope

  Well

  Why?

 nwoll27: i was thinking about how you seem to speak with only the top of your diaphragm, like you're whispering the words

  i think that's the biggest "problem" with your voice, at least as far as singing goes

  (i rather like your normal voice)

10:19 PM i think you could do a lot with it by taking a deep breath and puffing up your chest and trying to sing with your whole abdomen, really like

  push the air out

  if that makes sense

 me: alright, I shall try that!!!

10:20 PM nwoll27: i was listening to that clip i recorded the other day with you and the part where i was saying you could be my intrepid radio partner

  and i was thinking that you'd have a good voice for it if you projected yourself more

 me: Oh, I see

  I definitely don't have a fearless voice

  ha

10:21 PM nwoll27: because the way you normally speak, sometimes it's almost like you're at the end of your breath and it loses definition and cracks sometimes

  i have a lot of time to think when i'm at work.

  ahahaha

 me: Hm

  I never noticed it

  my voice changes a lot though

10:22 PM Like I'll purposely try to my voice deeper and articulate my words when speaking logically about something

  or explain something I really know/care about

 nwoll27: yeah

10:23 PM it's easy to tell when you're comfortable speaking

  at least i think it is

 but i notice those sorts of things too

  OR

  maybe i just want to think you're more comfortable around me now

  ahahaha

10:24 PM me: Kinda, yeah"

I really should be doing my math homework now and I really should find a place to live in Spain. D:

...

LIFE IS ABOUT TO START.

MY LIFE IS ABOUT TO START.

<3

I've got it good

Too, too, too, too, too spoiled

o_o

Here.

I've got everything you need to stalk me here

why

am

I

so...

dumb

>_<

HmmMmMMMMM

Why do I eat when I'm bored?

I've gained like... 10lbs this year

in preparation of winter in Spain!!!

:)

Will I learn ANY Spanish?!

In a single month...

huh

I believe I can

Hey guys!!! Apparently I have hundreds of viewers sooooo....

listen to this clip of me singing!

http://soundcloud.com/vi3thoneyx/come-together

Yeap. That is all.

Yeah,  I know that I'm not good at singing. I really do.

However, at least I am not terrible.

I'm sorry if my mediocre singing makes you feel awkward though,
I can empathize. Ha!

<3

Um

I just really wanted attention tonight is all

so far a lot of kids have been telling me that I'm not a good singer

but I'm cute so they like it

and the more they listen to it the better it gets.

ha

just like the more you get to know me the better I get!

But also, here's the original song I was listening to before I got bored and decided to try it out for myself.

Enjoy

life and everything! <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wH6eiCJ9SDs