Met the most adorable guy ever today

He's going to be a hilarious good friend

As long as we don't talk about religion and politics

Blogger has become my go to venting thing.

Thank you for listening, strangers

Valentine's Day is my favorite...

I don't get angry enough to receive forgiving roses.

When do I get roses again?

Ugh, so many beautiful boys and girls. I want to be one....

I don't like the part where Andrew doesn't wake up until like 2:30

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I just want to say

I can pretend to be this for a while.

I guess

I could become a page

I hate being on my period.

There's this girl version of Kyle I'm jealous of because I try so hard to be like him but better but both of them just get people to fall in love with them easily and I'm learning to do that and can make it happen but just not as effortlessly as they do. I go to other places and try to make people fall in love with me and remember me but they both just go travel so casually and people are automatically drawn to them and are willing to do so much for them....

Ugh.

So jealous and can't explain clearly

I think I'm completely over Kyle because I'm friends with him and 2% not over Tommy because I'm not friends with him. : (

I'm a nice girl.

Halloween Horror Nights wasn't nearly as fun when I didn't bring home fifty million plushies from carnival games home.

Sometimes I get lonely and start looking through my contacts to see who I should call but I can never find anyone I'm willing to talk with

Then I call Andrew to pester him and feel love so I can run away from being so lonely...

Sometimes guys ask me how the heck did he manage to make me his girlfriend

And I think what do they mean how

He asked me out

We saw each other

We saw each other again

And we liked each other.

That's how

I want to be a Magic baller

I wanna travel to play in Grands Prix and Pro Tours

I wanna have everything paid for and stuffs

Live the awesome Magic life...

I think Andrew and Sarah would be a good couple.

She is very nice and acts adorably

She seems kind and stuff

I think I've become old and jaded

That's what I get for turning 19 u_u

why is buying a house so much cheaper than renting.... u_u

I can afford a $400/mo mortgage

rawr

maybe i should just live alone.

Yeap. I wanna lose weight.

i am so freaking moody right now

i'm going to fail my calc test

and all i wanna do is see my boyfriend

and all of these guys ido not care about whatsoever are trying to talk to me and comfort me

and it's a;welkjfffffffffffffffff

sigh

Andrew and I have different ways of asking each other for more specific answers to our questions

I feel like he usually tells me "Babe, you're still not answering my question"

so I think to myself... "Yeah, I did."

and when I ask him something and he doesn't give me an answer I want I just ask a different question changing my what to who, why, how or when.

Yeap.

Just saying.

Freaking hate myself so much now.

Dear God, help me do well on my calc one exam... please : (

Gosh, I got so angry when Andrew said "I thought you like getting hit on"

There's a difference between a guy asking for my name and number asking to take me out to lunch and a guy asking about my favorite guild before playing our match and leaving

There's no use of trying to explain the things that happen to me in an inpatient tone in front of Joe and Taylor

I was happy today. Hopefully I'll figure things out

It's your time to shine, buddy
I've put out a distress signal

First come first hero/heroine,,

Every single fucking modo experience for me has been bad. Jesus Christ

God dammit, what and idiot

My body can't handle dusty places

God fucking dammit

Honestly, I feel like a slave to my past trying to uphold caused I don't believe in anymore

I want to meet someone who'll completely blow me out of the water and who'll make me feel as if a shotgun was held up against my chest blowing everything apart

I wanna take a huge gasp of air feeling as if I'm finally alive again after being dead for so long....

That's all I want

Someone new who'll tell me what to do

I likes writing that presents itself as a hidden genius falsely

....

I like art

And music

And emotions.

Sometimes I feel like I'm never letting my real emotions show

Instead I just allow myself to be submerged into situations or have hormones take over.

I am sleepy.

I love tall white guys..

Nerdy ones too

I don't like hair that's too long.

I really appreciate beautiful eyes

I dislike being told what to do

I love flattery
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I need two Huntmasters

I feel ugly today

I have pimples

It's not nice

Guys still flirt with me

But I'm ugly..

I miss Andrew

I want him to hug me and say that I'm pretty.

Mmmm. Boy do I love me some compliments

Some guy

My friend

...

Some guy was teaching me this new writing thing similar to leet and I figured it out quickly

Then after I could reply and stuff he said....

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"Will you marry me?"

what is the right response to that?

sure, it's a joke

but

idk

I don't like it

as soon as Andrew said "that's back to back bad news -_-" i felt sick to my stomach.

*sigh*

I be wait'n on him like it be nuthin'
but deep inside it be sumthin'
he go smilin like im his world
But I know he be chasin roun' other girls
He hold me tight, he takes it low
But he dont kiss me the same no mo

We be keep'n each utter awake by lyin tuh urselves

"U be independent" I says

No need to be wit somun who gonna probably hurt yu

Huggin n kissin is nice

But It don't be no independence

It don't be no independence...

Lying to urselves

Huggins n kissins b duh world...

I crossed my heart and hoped to die
That you would finally find out why
I took a chance to be fantastic
Which made me real, no longer plastic
I'm sorry that I let you go
But there is so much I need to know
hypothesis and conclusion were on my mind
As well as test subjects for me to find
Haven't you heard the cost of understanding?
It's a depressing reality that's quite demanding
Oh well, I've tried. There's always hope
So far as I go looking down a scope
To save the world I'll be myself
and hide my feelings on the shelf
Two plus two six minus four
The secret meaning, the enlightening core
Aristotle was sad and so am i
For what I feel has been a lie.

I was reading through my worst Valentine's day......

I don't understand.

I've only said "I love you" to Tommy and Andrew so it feels so weird and awkward when people just say that they love me.... I just smile and act nice or ignore it in chats. >_<