A Mix of Envisaging Exceptionally and Realizing Rationally
Saturday, October 19, 2024
Monday, September 16, 2024
Dear god save my soul
Taking my life again's the greatest sin I know
Somewhere I've been poisoned and I can't find the source
When I get like this over time it gets worse and worse
Psychotic emotions rolling through me
How am I so blind
What is it those kind eyes see
What am I trying to find
I'm looking dear god I'm looking
I'm searching my with hands out front
These people I took in
God I'm such a cunt
Monday, September 9, 2024
Friday, September 6, 2024
Saturday, August 31, 2024
When I cough the fits start
No more control
I lose myself as I'm thrown out of my body
I gasp for air but my breath is shallow
It's not enough
So I heave
I need to expel everything from my lungs
I need to breathe
The sharp intake desperately imbibes what it can
My lungs full of water, mucus, pus expand and try to break free
But it comes in too quickly
My lungs do not feel my other body parts
But they sure do feel the lungs making its way
Taking up space
But that unexpected reflexive breath for air
Pays no mind to my ribs
Does not know my throat exists
Is not part of my digestive system
The need for air now overwrites all other functions
So I swallow down more liquids
I cough up what I can from my lungs
The first breath wasn't enough
I cough again
This time an even bigger breath
And I am drowning
There is a film of phlegm which blocks my airways that has been intimately felt with each previous breath
But not this one
This is the cough where I choke
There's a reason why I choose to kill myself through drowning most often
This is how it's meant to be
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