If only we learned before moving on

I'm hungry

I miss the way you'd fill my bowl

Infinite grains of wisdom

I miss the way you notched the knoll

You taught me how to live some

Do something, move up, go and make your mark

Since I am unhappy, I must not be that smart

Water runs though I am not cleaner

Sweat trickles through, my thoughts grow meaner

Darkness engulfs the room, I cannot see

Instead I feel, sense, and breathe

Increasing awareness, what surrounds me

Warm water

Cold air

Strange cars

A silence of an empty home

Who will remember this moment 

Rigid dimension

One place, one time, one way all aligns

A miniscule speck to move on from

I am stuck looking back, I am still here

Frozen

And so it goes, who will remember me

I am not alone, but I am lonely

I can breathe, but I am drowning

Enveloped by my thoughts, I cannot escape

I've been caught 

Someone read my broken mind and save me

I want to be saved 

I think I give up, but I shall try once more

It will happen again

The same situation and dynamic, I never learn

Doomed to repeat the cycle searching for what's not there

I should be alone