"He's being completely selfish" Aaron urged. "Think about it. What did he say to keep you? That he loves you? That he doesn't want to lose you? That he'll change for you?"

"...... yeah."

Aaron's frustration grew and he typed on his phone thinking of ways to emotionally and logically make Lisa realize what she has to do. She was so close to making the right decision, he couldn't let her slip away.

"But I'm more happy than unhappy with him."

What is she saying? Does she not realize that those two feelings do not balance each other out? She should not be unhappy at all, no matter how happy she is when she's with George. Defeated, Aaron decided to let her be. Maybe one day her unhappiness will outweigh her happiness.

"You're an idiot" Aaron muttered at his monitor while stalking George's Facebook profile. George was certainly better looking than Aaron, and Aaron knew that. Aaron could also see that George wasn't exactly the most handsome guy, average at best. He scrolled down and stared at George's relationship status: In a relationship with Lisa Thompson.

Oh, Lisa. Lovely, lovely Lisa. He clicked onto his inbox and asked her how she was doing. He decided he was tired now and went to lie down in bed with his ferret, Lee. The best part of his life was how much Lee loved him and how excited she always is around him.

Dear diary,

all I want in my life is stability and normalcy. That is all I'm asking for. I wish to have a small home to live in. I wish to not have to worry about money. I wish to have someone who will take care of me and love me.

Early 20s in the 21st century is the worst for this stuff.

Tiel sat down and cried. She cried and cried and cried. Suddenly everything overwhelmed her and she thought about how much of her life is a lie. How many facts she hid and ignored to feel good. So much work had to be done to have the order she wanted in life. Maybe one day everything will go away. Maybe one day she won't actually have to deal with any of this shit.