I am so happy about my 19 cent raise. >_<

It's my first raise!

I've never kept a job for so long...

:)

I just waved at and walked by someone I held hands with and roller skated with on their eighteenth birthday.

Weird how people just become not special to one another

It's pretty fucking difficult to sleep on this couch

I wish there was a soothing phone number I could call and fall asleep to on important nights.

I guess I'll wait a year to live with Andrew....

I love him so much.

I just want him to be mine and with me forever

And I wanna sleep with him
So I can wake up not feeling tired

Sometimes I hate Andrew a lot

I hope Andrew calls me to tell me that he loves me one day

Andrew is pretty close to perfect for me.

I love him very much.

I love him.

I love him.

I love him.

I'm not obsessed with him as much as I was with my exes.

I just actually love Andrew!

Dear god
Why do I have to be in so much fucking pain right now
Omg
My legs hurt

This is the worst!!!
D':

fucking FINE

I'LL GIVE IN AND SLEEP ON MY GODDAMN PHONE AGAIN LIKE THE HABITUALLY CLINGY SLAVE OF THE PAST THAT I AM

this is so retarded

I hate myself

dear god

someone please fucking help me go to sleep

I JUST WANT TO SLEEP

PLEASE

T_T

Nhi's laying in bed now, trying so hard to sleep.

Her headache is getting worse and she hasn't taken medicine for it.

"Maybe it's because I don't have the phone next to me" she thought

Suddenly unwanted memories of her ex flood into her head

like that one night she called her ex while he was at work and heard him describe how he constantly left the call on during work.

Calls usually dropped after four hours.

It became such a bad habit that she couldn't sleep at night for weeks after her ex and her broke up

Instead she'd leave early in the morning and drive down to Winter Park in order to have a body to nap with

"I don't want to think about this" she moans to herself.

"Everything is better now"

Inside her head an image of her becomes vivid with her arms crossed over her chest in order to keep her heart from falling out

just before she falls down to her knees Andrew comes up behind to hold onto her tightly

and somehow he manages to save her during this almost heartbreaking moment without knowing it.

Finally Nhi starts to relax and begins taking slow breaths

It's so good to be in love

and tomorrow will be good.

I probably enjoyed my time worth Tommy and Kyle so much because we did so many awesome things and I had so many New experiences

Random fact

The first year I started dating my ex I would only get him off my moaning and making sex noises

It was so easy to turn him on

He was 18/19 at the time.

That is so fucking creepy to think about.

Gross.

Why did I go through puberty so early??

I wish I never dated Tommy sometimes
But that would have sucked

Because I really love Andrew right now and I don't think I would love him the same if I had never been with Tommy and definitely if I had never briefly experienced my John Lennon.