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I'm so lonely. My heart hurts. I don't want to be a burden. I don't want to be alive. I don't want to think.

I'm so lonely. I want to disappear.

I spend so much of my time thinking about myself, praying for anyone at all to think of me.

Think of me. Help me. Do something. 

History.... no, no, no, no. History, no. Please.

1,000x

1,000 lives

Why do I look at humanity so kindly?

While I do not care about the individual, I still defend the masses. 

The human experience encapsulates so much.

Those who are lucky will learn and feel the best parts more often.

And those who aren't will suffer from the annoyance built over misunderstanding. 

I've never had a relationship this good.

How lucky am I?

I am so madly in love with this human being.

Every night we are together I have the privilege of looking forward to when the whole world gently calms. When darkness loosely covers our room and nothing from the house can be heard, inner peace swiftly presents itself. Finally, you are with me. You see me, my smile, my eyes, my lips, my tits. You see all of me.

I cherish each sweet moment I can. I desperately want to savor every little detail that goes right and with you the mountain of memories made have propped you on a pedestal so tall that even a hushed whisper of your name towers over any doubt of your perfection. 

I love when I touch your face and you lean in for a kiss. I love how you can tell that I want to be kissed. I always want to be kissed. I love that I can kiss you now as you sleep next to me. 

I love that just looking up towards your sleeping face I felt the overwhelming motivation to write down my thoughts and express myself. 

I love who I am when I am with you. 

If only we learned before moving on

I'm hungry

I miss the way you'd fill my bowl

Infinite grains of wisdom

I miss the way you notched the knoll

You taught me how to live some

Do something, move up, go and make your mark

Since I am unhappy, I must not be that smart